sometimes i wonder..
it is not that i dont want my relative to help me.
its just that, i'm really really afraid to disappoint people.
it isnt that pressure lis not a good thing or what..
is just that my cousin took the time to help.. and i disappoint her by having to flunk my chemistry.. thats why sometimes i don't want to get my relative to teach..
what would they think.. but i would think that i'm just wasting her time..
each time i flunk my chemistry will ask myself 'why? no matter how many practices i've dont i still cant do it?' maybe you people are right.. i didnt put in enough effort. not that i want to have negative thought.. is the constant failing. my mother also said that you cousin took the time and i dont appreciate.. i appreciate, but i'm just not fit for it, they shouldnt waste their precious time on me. i really dont know how to express... i just hope what they means. i really put their comments to heart. i care, i do care. i've given thoughts on what my dad said to me. his comment on my results. i understand what he meant. and he add more today. i understand he is trying to encourage me. beacause he do care. sometimes i really hope they understand what i'm trying to express although i wasnt making clear of myself..